my first "stuck"

WOW that was scary!! I was eating some leftover talipia. I knew after I took the bite and swallowed it, that it was to big. normally I just get a little pain and then im fine. But NOOO! It hurt so bad, and lasted forever. I tried and could not throw up. I did have a few burps and the slimy crap. uhh fun! Finally after 10 min I got my digestive enzime, but I had to take it with applesauce since it is a capsule. So I opened it over the applesauce and man. I took the bite and felt like it was in my throat. Was such a horable feeling. I also took a drink of water and like 30 seconds later I was perfectly fine. I need to get some of those chewable enzimes incase this ever happens again. uhhhh

new pictures

I took some new pictures today. They arent my normal pictures but they are done with my phone and a mirror at the gym. oh well the same effect. The first 2 are compairing from the begining. and the last 2 are from the last pictures on 3-7-11. So 15 days ago.

sitting here thinking

I was just sitting here looking at my compairision photos. I just can't believe how big I let myself get. I always said if I were to get to 300 pounds I would just stop eating or something and go dirastic on weight loss. I was 7 1/2 pounds away from that, but just looking at my face and arms and legs. uhhh makes me sick. I wonder why someone just didnt come up to me and say "erin your getting a little out of hand." I guess i just didnt see that I was THAT big.... BUT never again!!
On my second note, when someone asks what kind of diet I am doing, I tell them that I had the band done and I always get that look that oh, so shes not dieting... I always feel like I have to explain that just because I have the band doesnt mean that im not doing any of the work. I still have to go to the gym 1 1/2-2 hours a day 6 days a week, I still have to eat only healthy food, and watch my calories and carbs, and protien. I feel like I have to explain that the only thing the band does is make me eat lower portions sizes, back to what we are SUPPOSED to eat. It stops me from over eating.
Someone also asked me how I could put all these pictures and my weights on the internet. The way I look at it is, It gives me motivation. I know all of you out there are watching me and expecting something from me. If I just quit or gain it all back, I would feel like im not only letting myself down, but you too. does that make since. ok. im going to quit, I just had to get some things off my chest.

Im lacking I Know

I have been slacking on my picture taking job. oops. But I did it today after I came home from the gym. So today is 3 months since I started my low carb diet. I only lost 1-3 pounds before I started my liquid protein diet on December 23rd.

ok....

So, I dont get it. I lose then I gain about 1-2 pounds over 2 days or so, then for the next day or 2 I stay at the same weight then I loose again. Repeat... uhhhh!!!!!! This is getting so agervating. and im still not losing clothing sizes either. only gone down 1 size. my jeans are REALLY lost but the next size down is to small...

also I just decited I am going to do a 5k walk/run April 23rd. anyone want to sponser me or do it with me let me know. It benifits St. Rose School. http://www.strosedistrict14-15.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/12/WILDCAT-POUNCE-2011.pdf

I started using the cross trainer. It doesnt hurt my knees like the eliptical does, but I can go faster than on the treadmill and im not board like the treadmill. I have been watching bandedwendy youtube videos and tell myself I wont stop till she stops talking... haha. GO WENDY!! sunday night was the first time I did it and did 20 minutes today I did it for 40 minutes and went 2.79 miles. WOO HOO!!! Love it!